Just to let you know

Something y'all should know about me...

1) I'm a thinker- I think about loads of things. like my future but when i think about the future...
2) I become a worrier- which then i will...
3) reflect a lot- which explains my name...

These 3 things are some of my characteristics. But if it's good or no good, it's entirely up to me and you.

Anyway. I was just thinking about my future when i looked at some posters in my school. What am i going to take up? Should i continue my CCA or choose a new one? After i think about this, i will worry about whether if i can get this, the way i want it. I will also worry if I'm going to like it, and if i have that much determination to get it and stick with it. That's my life. I know what i want, but honestly can i get it. In order to get that, i have to go through several steps first.

1) Get into the right class in Sec 3
2) Maintain academic and CCA results
3) Get reasonable O level results
4) Get into JC
5) Stay with a CCA that i actually like
6) Get good results for A level
7) Get a scholarship

Some problems with this... Can I get into the class of my choice? There's a reason why I'm worrying about this now. Frankly, my CA1 results were not very good. In fact, not good at all. CA1 results are 40% of my Mid-Year results. I don't know what to do. Every time someone asks me why i failed math, i would say. " I don't know, when i look at the test the second time, i can do do it( easy actually) but during the test itself, i know how to do but it's just that all my methods are wrong." I can't even explain myself and i want to go to a good Sec 3 class... I'm out of my mind